Happy Mothers Day!

Yes, I am still here! I have been extremely busy juggling the new house, finals week for Nick, the Dutch Delight 4, and two children with ear infections! But, I thought I'd take some time out tonight to post about Mothers Day.

I LOVE being a mom. It is the most amazing and rewarding job ever! I feel unbelievably blessed with my two children. They bring so much joy and love to my life. I just tucked Carter in and we talked about Mothers Day and what it means. Yes, it brought tears -- lots of them. Yes, it brings me down. No, it isn't much easier than the first year... (for those of you who don't know, I lost my mom on Christmas Eve 2007 in a terrible car accident)

I try to focus more on my journey as a mother, and not as being motherless. God has blessed me beyond imagination with 2 children and I am so grateful for that. And, I am thankful for the 22 years I had with my mom. So often, Satan can get me sad and angry because of the short time I had with her, but then I think of those children who never knew their moms. But I did - for 22 wonderful years. So, tomorrow I am going to try to remain as grateful as I can - instead of being sad and angry - I am going to do my best to celebrate my mom's life, and not dwell on her death.

(Whoa...this is so much harder to write than when I had thought it out in my mind.)

I really am not sure why I am writing this in my blog. I guess I felt like I needed to get it out. And I realized on Friday at Potluck how people are clueless about how to react around me. The subject of mothers came up and suddenly the conversation got awkward and silent. I couldn't fix it - it was sad for me...But I don't want to rob my friends of the joy of talking about their moms.

So I guess I kinda want to take this time to thank everyone again for your many prayers and your extreme love and consideration that you have shown me. Going through the loss of my mother has not been easy, but it sure has helped having so many Godly friends (and family) by my side.

I am not looking for sympathy from this post. Maybe continued prayers - we could always use those! ;) Thanks for listening and sorry there are no pictures...I thought about posting a picture of my mom - but this post took me so long to work through that I am too tired to add a picture! Maybe someday I'll put one up on my sidebar....We'll see.

A big Happy Mothers Day to all you moms out there! And - to those of you who no longer have your mom...well I understand. My prayers of comfort will be with you.

Another thing to think about would be those women who want so badly to be a mom - and can't. My love and prayers are with you, too.